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Life's Most Important Questions

As far as I know, everyone has the same life question: why am I here, where am I from and where am I going? Over my life's search, I have come up with some conclusions for me. The shoe may not fit for everyone but my conclusions have given me peace of mind.  I lost a son many years ago, which was a devastating experience. I wanted to be with him. but I didn't want to kill myself. It was a painful experience. I started reading books and listening to YouTube stories on near death experiences,  Many of those experiences told of going into another realm and feeling really loved,  I also followed Dr, Joe Dispenza and learned how to meditate - something I had never really done before. In my meditations I experienced, at first, feelings of floating out in the universe and feeling very alone, Then, somehow. over time. I grew to feel connected to all that there is. If I was floating out in space, I felt part of the universe, loved and safe. Sometimes my being was similar to those ...

Do You Feel Alone? I do

It's Sunday, November 3rd. I went with friends to lunch, came home, was watching a YouTube and dozed off. When I woke, there was snow.  I felt weird. What started my weird feelings? I was "off". I was thinking negative thoughts about my friends and feeling alone. I live alone but most of the time I love my life. What's happening now?   The words to a song came to me: "People are strange, when you're a stranger, faces look ugly, when you're alone. Women seem wicked when you're unwanted, streets are uneven, when you're down. " (The Doors)  A while back I was at my house not thinking of anything in particular, then I began mulling about the IRS and I was getting upset. Then I said, Why am I thinking about this now? I wasn't thinking about this a few minutes ago?   I decided not to think about the IRS then. I turned the scary thinking off and went back to thinking about more neutral thoughts. Sometimes it's not that easy to turn off that ...