Life's Most Important Questions

As far as I know, everyone has the same life question: why am I here, where am I from and where am I going? Over my life's search, I have come up with some conclusions for me. The shoe may not fit for everyone but my conclusions have given me peace of mind. 

I lost a son many years ago, which was a devastating experience. I wanted to be with him. but I didn't want to kill myself. It was a painful experience. I started reading books and listening to YouTube stories on near death experiences,  Many of those experiences told of going into another realm and feeling really loved, 

I also followed Dr, Joe Dispenza and learned how to meditate - something I had never really done before. In my meditations I experienced, at first, feelings of floating out in the universe and feeling very alone, Then, somehow. over time. I grew to feel connected to all that there is. If I was floating out in space, I felt part of the universe, loved and safe. Sometimes my being was similar to those schools of fish that all swam in the same direction,  All together. I felt part of the group. Similar  feeling, again, connected and cohesive. A very peaceful feeling. 

During my time studying near death experiences, I came across a man who was very left brain in his thinking. He had a radical experience that totally changed hsi relationship with reality and learned skills to investigate the contracts that we possibly make between lives. 

I read his book and felt like I could resonate with a story he told about a client where they and others in their lives - in my case it was my son who passed away, his wife and I - made contracts to play specific parts in each other's lives, It felt like a recognition to me. Like this is what the three of us decided ahead of time. 

Let me explain. My son was an adult when he was killed in an automobile accident, He had a wife and 2 children, His wife had a premonition that he would die on the road. He did!  Why wasn't I told? 

Usually the mom senses when something could or would happen to her child, I believe I wasn't aware of his pending death because that is what I contracted to before my son, daughter-in-law and I came to this earth and acted out our part in this "play", Before my son died, I felt a darkness around my son but I couldn't relate it to his possible pending death, If I felt my son was going to die I would have done anything to save his life. I would have slashed his tires. locked him up in a room. I would have done anything to save his life, Also, I would not have been able to bear it if he had died when he was living at home as a minor. 

On the other hand, I believe the contract my daughter-in-law made was that she could bear losing my son, her husband, if she was well provided for if he died. She was. 

Also, my son's contract might have been that he wanted to live a short, vibrant life. Which he did. And, he agreed with my terms and my daughter-in-law's terms. 

What if, just as a question to ponder, we decided what we wanted to learn and how we wanted to grow when we came down here? What if we wanted "more" in the spirit realm and the only way we could grow was to come down here to this training grounds, not knowing who we were and where we came from and what our infinite abilities were. What if we had to learn what our abilities were??

Referring again to people having near death experiences, many of them said how totally loved they felt up there, and many learned concepts and ideas that they were not aware of down here but many did not remember what they learned up there. If they remembered everything then the "game" would not be as effective. 

What if?

i remember having a conversation with a friend when I was about 18 saying that this life is just a stage and we are all just players in a production. 

What about this life review that many near death people experience? Why would we we want to see how we did here? Or go back to earth and make some changes? And what if most of those changes involved being nicer to each other and seeing the long term consequences of being nicer to others? Even seemingly insignificant changes making a big ripple effect in our and others' lives.

What if? Something to think about. 

I have noticed that, for myself, as I have improved my interactions with other people my life has been overall better. I have personally felt better and I feel more connection with others and I feel more reason for my challenges to strengthen me and my patience to see a bigger picture and waiting on the unknown because it most always turns out differently that I thought it would. 

The experiment. Would you like to try it for a day or two?