Do You Feel Alone? I do

It's Sunday, November 3rd. I went with friends to lunch, came home, was watching a YouTube and dozed off. When I woke, there was snow. 

I felt weird. What started my weird feelings? I was "off". I was thinking negative thoughts about my friends and feeling alone. I live alone but most of the time I love my life. What's happening now?  

The words to a song came to me: "People are strange, when you're a stranger, faces look ugly, when you're alone. Women seem wicked when you're unwanted, streets are uneven, when you're down." (The Doors) 

A while back I was at my house not thinking of anything in particular, then I began mulling about the IRS and I was getting upset. Then I said, Why am I thinking about this now? I wasn't thinking about this a few minutes ago?  I decided not to think about the IRS then. I turned the scary thinking off and went back to thinking about more neutral thoughts. Sometimes it's not that easy to turn off that scary voice inside.

When I was in Thailand I was working with a Visa attorney. Things were not going  smoothly. Michael Singer, on YouTube wrote the book  "The Untethered Soul" and  suggested that when one feels scared, one should acknowledge those feelings, then let them go. So I did! I acknowledged to myself that I was scared. I even had a little cry. I let it out. Michael says that pushing down those scared, angry, frustrated, lonely feelings makes one hold on to them longer. I wanted to release those feelings and let them go - and be free of them! 

Thank you for letting me share my feelings. I feel better already. 

So, I haven't introduced myself yet. I go by the name of Mackenzie. I started a travel blog in 2015 and did that for several years because I love to travel. Now there are so many of us out there that have so many questions, fears, challenges and current events to deal with. So much to take in and unpack. So I decided to start a self reflection blog. 

I have been on a road to self discovery and peace of mind for many years. At first it felt like a puzzle. As I found one more piece and figured out where to put it, the puzzle would come together more. Now, I have the puzzle (for me) figured out. 

I mostly LOVE my life! I learned that from Michael Singer. He said that as I learned to process the current feelings that I have, and release them, I will be free to experience everything, every day - both the so called "good" and the so called "bad" (more on this later) and love every experience in my life! I'm still on this road. Still learning, but mostly very optimistic. Even in light of what is happening in the world around us. 

My friend and I recently attended a class on yoghurt making. She is Christian. I said that now could be considered the "last days" mentioned in the Book of Revelation in the bible and yet we're attending a yoghurt making class! Isn't that ironic? The world is falling apart and we are enjoying time together in a yoghurt making class! In other words, some really good things are happening too.

So, in closing I'd like to say, on my personal journey, I have learned that you, yes you, are so precious. Precious beyond belief! I know this now to the core of my being. Your life is of great importance. You play an important role in the world today. You, personally, touch so many lives. Every day! The strangers you meet. The friends you influence. There is a role that only you can play. You are important, precious and irreplaceable! Take care! I am grateful for this time we spent together today. Until next time.